When Phil died so many people said to me, “just give it a year” we’ll I have and you know what.
So far this year has been much harder then last year. I know I was numb through most of last year and that’s probably why this fall hit me so hard. When football season started I fell apart and have been struggling to bring myself back. Fall was always mine and Phil’s favorite time of year with football, football soup, school starting – meaning a house full of kids again. Phil’s favorite weather when he could wear shorts and a sweatshirt. I have been more involved with Church and Bible Study which has helped but Heather moved back to Fl with the kids and moved in with some guy 4 hrs from any family. She has not been letting us talk with the kids which has been tearing us apart. Not only did I lose my husband last fall but this fall my grandchildren were taken away from me.
Knowing I needed to do something before I went crazy. In a rash decision I decided to go to a wedding in Tucson where all of our Vanguard kids would be. I am now at the airport waiting for my flight home and thinking about all the things God has done for me, I’m forever grateful. When my words can’t say what I feel inside, I’m forever grateful!!
I feel so humbled by the love these guys always show me and for God allowing me to have them in my life.