Happy New Year I hope you all had a peaceful Holiday season with your family and loved ones. A NEW YEAR, a clean slate, a fresh start well, I guess that’s what we all have before us. I am starting mine off with a bang I’m moving again, this time to Winter Garden, Florida. Yes, I am tired of moving!
First let me get you caught up. I believe most of you know that I feel a calling to work with young people that are lost, searching for a place they can feel rest, able to take a deep breath and know things will be OK. A sanctuary where nothing matters but where you are right then. To me it’s a place I can go take a deep breath and feel Gods presence where I can Lean Into all he has for me and not be distracted by this world. After Phil died I was praying about what I was to do with the rest of my life. I felt God spoke the name forever home to me. Because I felt this so strongly I bought the domain name ForeverHome.org and forever-home.info which I still own. My prayer was to open a home for young people getting out of foster care or for people rescued from sex trafficking. Neither have come to pass as of yet but my desire is still there. To do something with young people and speak into their lives is what attracted me to becoming a house parent for international students thus having the jobs I have for the past 2 yrs. Although a part of me enjoys what I do the biggest part of me is unsettled. I know this is not what I am to do for the rest of my life. I know it is a stepping stone for what God has for me. One of the churches that has had a huge impact on me the last year or so is Calvary, Fl. Rev. Jim Railey is the pastor. I watch it online all the time I love this church I love what they stand for every message speaks to my soul. I have been wanting to go there since I found it online. About six months ago As I was watching and they announced it would be a special service that Sunday for one of the outreach groups of the church called Excellerate it is for young people getting out of foster care. Needless to say I was exstatic – these kids go through a program to learn life skills and strengthen their walk with the Lord. When they graduate they are given a car that is donated to the church to help them be able to get to their job and get a decent start at life on their own. (I did drive there and talked with one of the leaders of Excellerate.) when I was leaving I was handed a pamphlet about the program which I didn’t read till the next day. In the pamphlet The founders of the program were sharing their vision for this program and one thing they said the only confirmation I needed to move to fl and volunteer with this program. They said, ” we want these kids to feel like they have a Forever Home.”
Anyway to make a long story short I am moving to another house parent job near Orlando so I can be involved with this program at Calvary Florida. The first meeting for their new group is Jan. 21st. I move the weekend of Jan. 16th to my new Houseparent position. I will be a little over an hour from the church but that’s much better then 5 hrs.
In the past 3 1/2 years and especially this past year I have come to realize how important a home is. I know how I constantly feel unsettled, I can see and feel the restlessness and longing in my kids. We all feel very disconnected from everything. Yes, we have the Lord and ultimately our home is in Heaven we are very aware of that but we still need a physical place our family can be together, a place to call home a place we can just be. The structure doesn’t matter the size doesn’t matter the location doesn’t matter. What matters is it’s ours in the sense that it’s a place where we feel we belong. To me it’s a place that holds your heart, the things your memories are wrapped in where those memories can speak to your soul. It’s not about the things it’s about the memories and the feelings they bring. A place you can go and know you are welcomed as you are a place to be reminded of the past while embracing the future. I guess I have never really thought about a physical home (house) like that untill this Christmas when my kids and I didn’t know where we could go to be home together.
This brings me to the second point this blog. I’ve been trying to buy a place where boys and myself could feel at home. I tried buying a mobile home but it fell through it just seems like we are Lost as a family. I have a dear friend that has offered to sell me her place in upstate New York at a discounted price. There is quite a bit of land with a house and barn. This is beyond anything I could ever imagine. The boys and I went up there over Christmas and didn’t want to leave I felt such a peace there. Yes, it is far and gets very cold is secluded from city life (for sure) but, I saw so much potential and peace from the second I saw it. My boys and I just walked around spurting ideas so much so I feel I really need to stop and listen to Hear Gods voice on this one. I am not sure what I’m supposed to make of it but I know I would love to be able to have a place God can use. My family and I are praying for direction as is my friend, she and her family spent 10 years living there and praying over the land. I walked around and prayed for the land and what God would like to use it for. I don’t know if this is from the Lord or not. I don’t have any answers I just have a lot of questions but I feel it’s something I need to pursue. So I’m asking for your support, please pray that God continues to unfold His plan if this is for me. That I know how to proceed, that I hear what he says and am obedient even if it’s not what I want to hear. For finances in every area. Along with your prayers I would love to hear your thoughts. Right now my plan would be to have it a place for girls rescued from sex trafficking and one cottage for a person or a family, couple that need to get away and hear from God. This place is none other than a gate into Heaven.
My Prayer is that we may all hear the voice of our father clearly, that you have a Blessed and Fruitful 2016! And that we all Lean Into God and find the Joy in what REALLY matters this year. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!