I am thankful for you in my life and I pray you have a Blessed Holiday Season. It has been a long two years feeling like I’ve just been on autopilot not knowing where I’m going or what I’m doing just trying to survive it’s been hard and very frustrating. All I know is I want to do something with my life that makes life better for others and I want to work with young people.
None of the areas I initially thought I was going to work in have worked out.
My mother would always say to me , “Kristin, if you have to force something to happen it’s not meant to be. If it’s the Lord’s will things will just fall into place,” and that they did. I now find myself living on Hilton Head Island, South Carolina. Where I am at House parent for the JPGA golf and equestrian Academy. Since mid-November I’ve been the house mother to six girls from China and I love it. I live in one of six cottages. There are three boy and three girls cottages this changes each year depending on who comes to the Academy. But, for now I know I am here till summer and Lord willing a long time after that.
My past is all in storage and I pray someday I’ll be able to have my past and present together in one place again. But, for now I have a room of my own, a roof over my head, food and young people around to keep me focused on each day.
I would like to share some thoughts from my heart with all of you. When Phil died the boys and I didn’t just lose a husband and father we lost the center of our lives we lost our lives because we lost of the lifestyle that we knew the people that surround us. As you know when you’re a musician it’s not just a job it’s a way of life it’s a lifestyle and it’s all consuming. Because of who Phil was and what he did when he disappeared most everything about our lives disappeared along with him which is been very hard on all of us. We have been searching, all of us, for where we belong and where we fit in because we are no longer a part of what we knew we no longer feel a part of the community that we were once part of. I feel like an outsiders looking in and wanted to be able to go back and be a part of the community but can’t. I know this has been extremely hard on the boys but it’s been devastating to me and that’s hard to say but I have felt like I died along with Phil to most everybody we both knew. I can honestly say I think I’ve heard from less than 90% of the people that were a part of our lives those we considered family. Losing Phil was devastating but losing the rest of you along with him has made life seemingly unbearable at times. I am so thankful I know The Lord and that He never leaves me.
I just want you to know that I appreciate your prayers and your support but I miss seeing you, hearing your voices and just hearing how you’re doing.
My boys and I doing okay. Troopers living in Orange, CA he has a beautiful woman in his life, Deb Harvey they are in a serious relationship and I couldn’t be happier. Erick is still in Nashville going through some transitions at the gym and housing. He’s had a hard year but I see light at the end of the tunnel for him. Christopher has had a really hard time he’s been very depressed and is struggling. Lord willing he will be able to find work and move to the East Coast to be closer to his kids, me and Erick.
God Bless You Everyone!!!